very stressed, I hate over thinking things so much. really need to decide what I want to do with my life and whether or not I can achieve that. so shit.
Stolen from skypink, 50 things I’m grateful for/make me happy:
1. long refreshing nights sleep
2. warm sunny days
3. feeling happy for no reason
4. cuddles
5. kisses from my boy
6. getting paid more then expected
7. being complemented
8. good sex
9. being excepted for all your good points & bad
10. when someone makes me laugh so much my stomach hurts
11. finding clothes I forgotten I had
12. when my cat wants my attention
13. being surprised
14. when someone remembers something small that you said
15. falling asleep to the rain
16. falling asleep in someone’s arms
17. random shopping trips
18. when you talk to a friend you haven’t seen in forever
19. making plans that will happen
20. when my make up goes right first time
21. remembering things that make me smile
22. new shoes
23. nice eyebrows
24. finding a bargain
25. finally buying something I’ve wanted for a while
26. making someone proud
27. nice tattoos
28. having something to look forward to
29. wearing nice underwear
30. leopard print
31. bleaching my hair and it not turning awful
32. watching QI while eating marmite on toast
33. getting excited for my birthday/christmas
34. horror films
35. house parties
36. starry nights
37. inside jokes
38. being with my best friends
39. waking up to texts
40. blink 182
41. having a tidy bedroom
42. uncluttering my life
43. receiving packages
44. walking in the sun with friends
45. having someone that cares no matter what
46. nights out
47. watching disney movies
48. being hugged from behind
49. having nothing to do for a day
50. eating healthy and feeling good because of it
that was harder than first anticipated!
I’m feeling pretty happy, i’ve got my boy, my best friends and a whole career in front of me. Life couldn’t be better.
I miss my boyfriend’s arms, the way he holds me when we’re sleeping, the way he looks at me when he thinks i don’t realise that he is. the way he rubs his eyes when he’s tired, the way he kisses me and holds my head in a certain way, the way he traces his finger up and down my back when we’re cuddling, the way he doesn’t mind shopping with me, my weird sense of style, my friends, he doesn’t mind when i go off in tangents and talk about crap for half an hour, the way he’ll watch disney movies with me and won’t complain even though i know he isn’t that into them, the way he tells me he loves me, the way he smiles, the way he always tries to make me smile, the way he can make a comment dirty just to make me embarassed and smile like an idiot.
I really do love him and everything he does.
To Do List 2012:
- get my swallow tattoo
- get my medusa pierced
- get my nose pierced again
- get a better job
- hopefully move in with J
going to drag my boyfriend to the cinema and then for food afterwards, then good sex. perfect valentines day to me.
I have some serious feelings going on, but I’m just scared that even though you’ve said so much and promised me the world, that you’ll end up hurting me or changing like everyone else has. The more I want you, the more I have to lose.
i’d love to know whose sending me these messages, obviously someone that is a jealous twat, get a life for fuck sake.
I’M FAT GET OVER IT.
this last week has been amazing, never felt so happy or content and theres only one person to thank for that.
J♥
you make me happy, and my feelings for you are growing by the day.
Never thought I could find someone so perfect and someone I actually have something in common with. I couldn’t ask for more than what you give me.
I’m jealous and i don’t have a right, you’re not mine and the way things are going you never will be, but i just can’t my feelings and these thoughts.
its so fucking shit being me right now.
it ma birthdayyyyyy!